Hello everyone. I know that a post in the middle of the week (let alone a Tuesday) is kind of odd, but this came to me after some thinking.
I am a writer and I know that what I do best is blogging so I felt like I needed to get this all out there whilst I still had the courage to do so. This might turn out to be a long read but if you’re willing, please listen.
I’m not going to sugar coat anything, things are looking pretty glum for me. Because I come from such a small town, it’s been damn near impossible to find a stable job. And I have mentioned before that I do need donations from readers to keep this site alive.
To show you guys just how hard it’s been, let me tell you about the past. When I graduated high school, I had absolutely no idea what I wanted to do. I knew my passions lied in reading and writing but I didn’t know what to do with that. So that’s when I started listening to other people. And while they probably didn’t mean anything bad by it, they were kind of telling me how to live my life.
I think that’s when things went wrong and I ended up following a path that wasn’t my own. So for about 5 years, I was working jobs that made me absolutely miserable. One job even went as far as to make me borderline depressed. I know mental health is important, but during that time it was the last thing on my mind. How horrible is that? I was putting money and what people thought of me first. My parents were happy I had a “good job” but I was the exact opposite.
I was always really angry at something or really sad and constantly feeling down. I thought something was wrong with me. Boy, was I not thinking straight. It was because I was doing something I didn’t enjoy and for all the wrong reasons too.
It wasn’t until I started thinking for myself that I decided to quit the last job I had and man, was that an eye opener. I was finally free. I was feeling much lighter, as if a weight had been lifted off of me. I was talking to my friends more and because of that, I started realizing more and more that I was the one making myself unhappy.
All because I was putting what other people thought of me first. Everyone saw I had a “good job” so they were all proud and I thought, that’s good enough for me then. Because people saw what they wanted to see. They didn’t see that I was suffering.
Then one thing lead to another and I finally decided, I want to start blogging. I love writing, I always have. It just never hit me to do something like running a blog because I was so caught up in “finding that good job” like everyone was telling me to.
That’s when I became determined to making writing and blogging my career.
However, I really can’t do this alone. I need help from the readers who have given my blog some love. That’s why I ask for donations. Not to be annoying or to get attention or anything like that. It’s because I really do need help.
So now I’m asking for advice from seasoned bloggers. What exactly helped to make your blog your career? How is it that you are now writing for a living? I would love to know! I would love to have your advice and your help!
I am so unbelievably determined to make this my job but I can’t do it without help. I know this because I am big enough to admit that running a blog and writing content every week is freaking hard. I’m not going to lie about it. I love writing, don’t get me wrong. It’s the coming up with new content all the time that’s a dream killer. But I won’t lose hope. I have been running my blog for nearly two years now, I’m not stopping yet.
And if you happen to be someone who used to live in the states but now works abroad, I would love some advice on that too! Honestly, I have always wanted to work somewhere more up north like Canada. Since middle school, I’ve had thoughts like this so I know that feeling won’t be going away any time soon.
If you made it this far, thank you so much for taking the time to read all my thoughts. I wrote this with my heart and it took a lot of courage. I’m hoping you lovely readers will give me a chance. Determination is what’s driving me now and I hope it keeps me going for a long time to come. And remember, donations are always welcome!